balloons on your chair.

july 15th was my cousin’s birthday.  it was his first in heaven; it was our first without him. ____ it was your birthday… and i cried for you. seeing balloons dance in the wind around grief.. around graves… i cried for you. everyone had left by then. i was late to the party they had; ...

remembering my Gone-to-Soon.

i remember you today… my tiny one, my Gone-to-Soon, my little Sparrow. i remember you today… when i’m told “Happy Mother’s Day!” as people see me with your sister. i hold her hand in my right; my other hand Empty. my heart holding you. i remember you today… and that Moment when i first knew ...

“in Christ alone” in sign

b & i started beginning signs with our girlie when she was around 7 months, and she started signing back at 9 months.  her favorite show is signing time on netflix, and she amazes me with her signing vocabulary at 1.5 years. i’d love for her to be able to continue sign throughout her education ...

atomic affection

i had a friend once that loved tropical fish. he spent tons of time, effort, and money in buying the right plants for the tank, maintaining proper pH and salt levels and temperature, using and arranging places for fish to swim through and around… i remember thinking that he must really, really like fish. i ...

so much, so little.

it has been one of those weeks where so much has happened… and i’ve felt so much, and have learned so much, that i don’t feel like i have words to say any of it. words fall short of it all. i tend to find words once my brain has a chance to process and my ...